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Time:01:55 pm
Current Mood:ecstatic
Past few days have been crazy. Finished exams today!! Woohoo! Just on my way out to get wankered! Had a pint at Potterow straight afterwards. Didn't sleep last night. Its going to be hardcore today I'm tellin ya. Some work mates were in. Had a nice...sit. All we did was sit. Need fags. I want to be so drunk right now. Watched far too much Vicar of Dibley in the past few days. Can now qoute whole episodes. Damn procrastination. Working next 3 night. Was supposed to revise for Latin last Friday night but David persuaded me to go to a party in flat 6. Got wasted instead. Left my Latin exam after 40 mins. Oh dear. The others have gone ok though. Ancient Hist this morning. Bah. In McEwan Hall though. So beautiful!! Might update later when I'm really wasted.
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Time:11:53 pm
Current Mood:sad
Well the exam went well really. I was writing continuously for the 2 hours which I think is a good sign. Conferred with David and Hazel at the end and we had written about the same stuff so that was also reassuring. One down, two to go. Next is Latin on Saturday. Hah! is all I'm going to say to that!! The meal was great. The guys from flat 2 came! I had no idea they were coming. They randomly bumped into some College Wynders at the Left Bank Bar and they invited them. Was soooo good to see them! Had a great meal. Then went to the Left Bank Bar for drinks. Most of us got pretty drunk. Was such a laugh!! Got some great pictures and when I go home I'll put them up on here. Forgot to bring my cable up with me in September. I went back to flat 2 for some more drinks. Got very drunk and had the weirdest yet most fulfilling conversations I've had since I've been here. Was quite revelatory. Very good. Can't believe I admitted to so many things and so did Chris. Was such good fun. Best sex that never happened. That will make no sense. And no I didn't sleep with him or do anything with him for that matter :p But yeah. Fucking cool.

Came home at 6 this morning. Got three hours sleep. Then had to get up to go to doctors about my sleeping problem. Got some proper sleeping pills. Taking my first one tonight :/ She only gave me ten and said I should take four and then see if I'm any better. If not take another four. If nothings changed by New Year I'm to go back for some 'heavy prescription drugs'. Bah to that I say.

Just watched Love Actually. Ultimate feel good film. Love it. Going to watch some Vicar of Dibley now I think. Couple of episodes before bed.

I'm wearing festive pyjamas today. Sky blue with snow flakes all over them. Sad and great :D

Sad news about Dimebag Darrell. Was one of my favourite guitarists. Fucking shocking. RIP.
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Time:12:35 pm
Current Mood:ill ill ill
Been revising the past few days. Library til midnight. Its nice and chilled in there though. Been getting up quite late but I think thats because of the sleeping tablets. Stopped taking them. Didn't take me too long to get to sleep last night but I woke up on time and felt quite awake, remarkably. Lay around for a few hours thinking about getting up :) Did an hour of revision this morning. Beast is back, we all had breakfast together. I'm ill. I'm not impressed about this. I always seem to get a cold or something before exams. Have a really sore throat. I've been drinking loads of orange juice, lemon herbal tea, and eating satsumas in the hope that it goes quickly. I really hate being ill. I just want to sleep right now but I have an exam in 2 hours!! I'm not nervous. Slightly worried but I've done epic for three years now. If I don't know them now I never will!! I'm sick of it now actually. I really want to move on to something else. Bring on semester 2. I've done some revision for it. Probably not enough but that's always the way. I just want to sleeeeeep.

Got that meal thing tonight. I am looking forward to it, even if I do have to sacrifice watching the Utd game. I know they've already qualified but I want to see some of the young players in action.

Think I might nap for an hour than go and get ready.
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Current Music:want to put something classical on but I'm sick of all the stuff I've got now...
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Time:10:49 pm
Current Mood:working
Well I had to take a sleeping pill last night. It knocked me out. Didn't wake up until 3. Was supposed to be getting up at 8:30. Damnit. So I'm getting a very early night tonight. Want to be knocked out by 12ish so I can get up early tomorrow. Want to get through alot of material. I don't think I'm nervous yet. I don't think I'm worried yet either. I think I will get through the material in time. Well....I hope.

Went to the library as soon as I was ready. Spent a good few hours there finishing off the Odyssey annotation. Had to come home for food though. Was getting to the stage where all I could think about was pizza. Didn't even end up eating pizza either. Had home-made garlic bread with cheese. Very tasty indeed.

I'm looking forward to going home now. Can't wait to see everyone. Text the crew today to see when they're coming home etc etc. Was nice to hear from Kitchen. Ross has a new biking injury - needed stiches. He's very proud. Bless 'im.

Can't stop thinking about a certain workmate. Damnit. On the plus side I just realised that the Classics Society wine and cheese evening is being held at his flat as I remember him telling me that the guy who organises them is his flat mate. So yeah, thats something to look forward to :D I'll see him at work this weekend too hopefully...

Arranged with Steve to have a piss up at the pub one night. Not seen him for years. I'm so pleased we kept in touch.

Going out for a meal with most of the group from College Wynd. Its going to be a collossal event. More than 20 of us going I think. INSANE. Will be wonderful to have everyone in one place to say goodbyes etc before the Xmas hols.

Now I'm going to get ready for bed, do some reading and then try and get an early night for once.
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Time:07:02 pm
Current Mood:calm
Well last night at work only some of the staff dressed up, none of the punters. It was decidedly quiet too. Very odd people out. So many of them looked young. I had to ID a few people. All was good but I'm sure some of them were younger than 18. Did fire alarm duty at closing time which was perked up by work mate James coming to keep me company totally high on shrooms and generally making me laugh with his drunken behaviour. Got told by several drunk men that I was beautiful. Which was hilarious. No tips though. Bastards ;)

On a very positive note I got to sleep this morning without the help of my sleeping tablets which is a very promising sign. I just played Pink Floyd - Atom Heart Mother and all was good. See, I'm always telling people Pink Floyd is absolute genius!!!

Now I'm off to the library for more fun-filled hours of revision. I need to finish the Odyssey annotation tonight. Then the Aeneid tomorrow and the Iliad on Tues. Plus I need to get going with Latin learning. Arse. So much to do. I'm not going to be as prepared as I should be but alas that's always been my problem.

Woke up to a lovely phone call from Jonno this morning. He always makes me smile.
Got nice text messages from Alex and Huge while I was at work which cheered me up immensely as it was vastly boring last night. Still, I'm getting to know a few people at work really well which is nice. I like Katie and James. They're totally mad!! I like Tom too...........but in a very different way......
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Time:05:12 pm
Current Mood:groggy
Went to the library last night to revise. Got quite alot done. Bumped into Meg. Was nice to have someone to revise with. Stayed there til midnight then headed over to Potterow for a pint. Was so quiet. Ended up staying til three. Meg left around 2 and I chilled with some of the staff when they were on their break. Did some work too. Saddo. I don't care. It was such a cool atmosphere to do work. Not very busy, chilled music in the background and a pint. Loving it :)

Today I am working. Its 'Go commando' night. I thought that meant wear no underwear but apparently it means you have to dress up as someone from the army. Easy mistake to make ;) So yeah, even though there's a prize for best dressed member of staff I'm not dressing up. I could say I'm a secret agent and just wear my normal work clothes :) How original.

These sleeping tablets are giving me nightmares. Its so shit. But on the plus side they are helping me sleep. But they're fucking strong!

Susan's dad brought us soooo much shortbread. Its mad! But sooooooo good.

I need to shower now. Not washed my hair for 4 days. Its because its so long. I've showered every day! I'm not that gross! I just can't be arsed washing my hair everyday. Too much bother.

I'm looking forward to work actually. I hope its as quiet as last night. That would suit me fine :)
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Time:06:41 pm
Current Mood:blah
Handed in my literary criticism. Its too short but never mind. Not expecting to do very well this term at all. I'm going to head over to the library for about 7 - 7:30ish and finish the Odyssey annotation. Learn some Latin verbs. Had to queue to hand my essay in. What a joke! Over-slept tremendously this morning too. Oh well. Feels weird to not be going out tonight. I think some people are going to the Bedlam theatre for the Xmas panto but I can't afford to waste time. I feel like I've done so badly in all my written work that I really need to do well in mt exams. I'd like to think that I won't have to re-take them next semester but I probably will have to - especially Latin. Feeling very subdued today. Think revision will be good for me. Give me some alone time. I really am looking forward to going home now. Not that I'm unhappy here or anything. I'm loving it here. It will just be nice to have my room, my car, my friends, my cat, my piano. Oh and of course my family. I miss them all terribly. Plus I'm looking forward to not having to cook for myself. I know my mum will spoil me rotten when I go back and I can't wait for it! Speaking of mother, she's just text me. She's ill :( Bah. Says it'll cheer her up when I come home. Bless. Bad cold. Anyway, I was just about to get all sentimental about home. I miss Dunham Park. I'm going to take long walks there when I go home. I love the trees in Winter. Its romantic and peaceful. Will definitely have to get stoned there too at some point with everyone. I really do miss little shopping trips in Altrincham and spending too much money in Waterstones. I miss going to the Stamford for a nice drink with Adcott. I miss Alex and our obsession with Harry Potter. I miss Kate and her goodness. I think I will be staying for New Year too although I'm not sure what I'm going to be doing exactly. Probably spend it with Ross etc etc. Yeah. Christmas will be good.

I've managed to stress myself out though. I know I'm not going to do very well this Semester. I'm really disappointed with myself. Its been a learning curve though. I know how much I've got to put in now. I know how I need to manage my time and I definitely know how to manage my money! I've sorted my finances out too so next term will all be good and I won't need to use my loan. Shouldn't have used this terms really but all next terms will be going into an ISA and the money I earn from working at Potterow will be paying off the overdraft. Thank god its interest free thats all I can say. Then full time job over the summer to earn plenty for next year. I did nothing this summer. Wasn't a complete waste. I mean I was with my friends and we were stoned constantly. I think I needed to have a summer where I could just do what I liked. After working so hard for two years I felt like I deserved it. Next summer will be different. I am determined to have plenty of money and I am VERY determind not to use any of my student loan ever again. I don't need to! I get £300 a month off my parents. That so should be enough. Once my earnings from Potterow have paid off my overdraft then I'll have extra spending money too. Well it all sounds very good written down but whether this will materialise is another thing. I will do my best to make sure it does!
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Time:02:50 am
Current Mood:aggravated
I really really want to know what the referendum outcome was for the NUS debate. Does anyone know? ANYONE?? This sodding uni does not update its websites enough man. It should be online NOW. I voted no. But I'm not really arsed to be honest. I'm just intrigued.
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Time:06:59 pm
Current Mood:working
Well I've completely finished my first semester of lectures. Its quite scary. Gone soooo fast. I don't have Latin tomorrow so I get a nice lie in. Just got to do this Lit Crit for Classical Lit then all the written work is done too. Then I can concentrate soley on revision. Want to get a good start on this Lit Crit now before I have a tea break with India at around 7:30-8ish. I'm so bloody tired today. Was supposed to get an early night but instead I went to Huge's to watch a film with India and Ian. Cold Mountain. Typical American epic. Nothing special.

Wish I hadn't smoked my cigs so quickly. Only got 1 packet left now:( Then its back to rollies. Bah to that.

Also, I've just realised that my Latin exam is on a Saturday morning. Damn them.

Back to work I go.....
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Time:11:48 am
Current Mood:very sleepy
Well the night out at Ego was totally mad. The pills were not as good as the first batch. A very weird high. Usually they make me want to dance all night but I really didn't want to. I just chatted to some randoms and a few people I knew. Was good to have Jonno out. Huge looked after me as usual. It was all good. Sophs stayed over. Had to take a sleeping pill so I could sleep. I slept straight through my alarm clock and didn't even realise Sophs had left. Went over to Jonno's at around 4:30. Needed cheering up - he was coming down badly so I took him M&S biscuits and herbal tea. I nice time was had. Watched some Ali G in da USA. So hilarious how they just don't get it. Sophs joined us and then we went to watch the footy. Utd vs Arsenal quarter final. Of course Utd won. Scored the only goal of the match after 18 secs of play. The Arsenal youngsters really were shocking. Hah! Today I actually got up for Latin!!!!! Shit, actually I think I need to head off to Ancient History now. Adios!
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Time:07:19 pm
Current Mood:happy
Well, got some tablets from the pharmacy for my insomnia. I have to take them for two weeks and if I still have problems after that I will have to see a doctor. Woohoo. Anyway, went to lectures/tutorials today. Have felt quite productive really. Came home and started some revision. Am going out tonight though avec Ian, Mark Sophs aaaaaand JONNO! Woohoo! We're all pilling maybe for the last time before next semester so I hope its a good one. Just about to get ready (gay club so not much effort needs to be made) then I'll do more revision. Got so much to learn. Argh! So little time man.
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Time:03:15 pm
Current Mood:melancholy
Work on Friday was fun. Mental. But fun. Ian, Mark, Sophs, India and Meg all came in to say hello. They were all fucked and pilling. I was so jealous! But they kept coming to say hello and giving me kisses which made my night. All the people that work at the Union are cool. Some bitchiness about one of the supervisors but I guess you always get the odd few that bitch. I, however, like everyone and will NOT be getting involved in that kind if stupidity. I was on the downstairs bar. Mental. Got some tips though. There is such a beautiful guy working there. He's a steward. Called Tom. Tall, dark and handsome. Nicely scruffy. Third year biology student. He's very sexy and was showing signs of interest. We'll see what happens.

Oh shit yeah, randomly went out on Thurs to Ego with my good mate Chris from back home. Not seen him for a good few weeks. Went to Whistle Binkies first for a few drinks. Met his flat mates who were totally mental. Was supposed to go to Ego for this punk and rock night, but the main club was playing acid techno and industrial dance. So we went there instead. Had an absolutely mental time. So wish I had pills for that night. Ending up pulling this guy called Simon. Canadian. Very cute and such a laugh. Exchanged numbers. I haven't called and neither has he. Which I'm quite pleased about because I was quite pissed and I can't really remember exactly what he looks like :) Chris assures me he was cute though. Was a pretty successful night. Five men and two women came on to me. One of the women was letting me sniff her poppers all night. Reminded me of being 13. Hilarious.

Back to work. Saturday was fucking mental. So busy. I was in the main venue. It was full of Raaas and even though they're all fucking rich they still can't tip. Arseholes. Yet, these cool Irish dudes who were apparantly totally overdrawn and poor (normal students like) tipped me all night on Friday because they liked my piercings. Now thats what I call nice customers man. They were hilarious. Totally wasted. I love drunk Irishmen. Didn't get home til gone 6am both nights.

My mum also visited me this weekend. Was so good to see her. We went out for dinner on Sat night before work. Got pissed then went to the pub. Had a bit of the banter with all the tourists here for the rugby. Bloody tourists. They're the main problem of living in Edinburgh. They're everyfuckingwhere. Americans with their fucking cameras taking pictures of absolutely everything and being loud and generally annoying. Don't get me wrong, I have some great American friends here but the tourists so DON'T need to shout all the fecking time. Like last night, par example. Its 3am. Window open for some fresh air. Just dozing off when the yanks from Kincaids arrive back having what you would call normal non-drunk conversations only about 2billion decibals louder than anyone else on the planet would speak. Why? WHY? ITS SO NOT NECESSARY!

Anyway, rant over there. Mum went yesterday. I swear I think she spent most of her time here absolutely pissed. But she had fun and she brought me cigs. So now I'm all happy. Oh and new hair straighteners - a life essential.

Today I was good and got up for Latin. Did some washing. Contemplated reading. Will actually do some when I've finished here. Then off to Class Lit lecture at 4. A nice chilled day. Got a letter from Kez (love you to bits xxxxxxxxx) and sold some cigs to Huge. Jonno phoned from Darlington (he had an audition ) which made me smile as he sounded all happy. Which is how Jonno should sound. Went round to his last night for supper with Huge and Ian. Was so nice to just chill and chat. Drank too much fizz, got nicely merry and then we headed out to Opium for Ruth's 20th. Opium (the shittest rock club ever but its all Edinburgh has) was as amusing as ever. Danced to my request (NIN) then left. Couldn't sleep at all last night. Then confessed something to Abbi which had been playing on my mind for weeks. Its totally hilarious and it would show you how much of a royal tit I can be sometimes :D I'm still not saying :p. I'm pleased she found it hysterically funny. Biatch ;)

On yeah. Bumped into one of Angus' friends Chris. He's doing Biology here. Served him at the Union on Sat. Was a pleasant surprise! Was good to see a familiar face when none of my friends were in.
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Time:07:35 pm
Current Mood:pissed off
Well, have been as busy as ever. Went to a 21st at Teviot on Tues. Got very drunk. Did some stupid things. Had a great time. Thought about some emtional stuff that needed sorting.

Wednesday was cool too. Had lunch with Huge. Which is what I really needed. Nice and chilled and just clarified loads of things. I feel all secure now. Sophs came round at the night and we just chilled. Had my first steak for dinner since I've been here. I was very excited about it.

Today I went to NO lectures and did some hardcore food shopping for when my mum comes up so she doesn't think I'm not eating properly.

I'm making homemade shortbread! I'm so excited about it! But I just went to check on it now and my Malaysian flatmate had switched the fucking cooker off after she'd finished using the hob! I'm so annoyed. Its just not been cooking for the past 30 mins! Argh!
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Current Music:Pink Floyd - Atom Heart Mother
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Time:06:07 pm
Current Mood:content
Last night was good. Went to Medina first. Was playing some wicked salsa music. Stayed there for a few hours then Huge came for a pint. Simon came after the Gomez gig. Then me, Abbi, Susan and Simon went to Why Not. Big student night. Full of Raaas which was hilarious. Sooooo posh! We had fun just taking the piss out of them all night. Got some free drinks as Jonno's work mates recognised us from Sat night. Danced for a while. Had some fun. Came home for three after eating a very much needed take away. Didn't sleep that well. Been having nightmare alot recently. Met up with Sophs this afternoon for tea and she's been having the same problem. It could be the pills. But its never happened to us before when we've taken pills. Went to Forest Cafe and Josh was there, as was David.

Oooooh I've got a job at Potterow! Bar work. I start this Friday! I'm quite excited about it. £4.85 an hour plus a drink at the end of the night and a staff taxi home. Its all good. Abbi's working there too as a steward. We're both doing the same nights so it should be interesting! At least we can laugh at all the wasted people together. Christ, I can't believe the manager James has given me a job! I met him so high on pills!

Got so much reading to do! And learning for Latin. I'm so going to fail if I don't start learning the vocab. Ah well. Its first year. Plus I can retake them. Its all good.

Just think I have to say again how much I adore Jonno!
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Time:11:38 pm
Oh yeah. I'm getting a job at Potterow. So need the money. I'm so poor! Will be cool though. Get to do bar work. £4.75 an hour plus money for taxi home. Its all good. Got to go see the manager James on Tuesday or Wednesday. Oooooh its nearly Abbi's birthday. She's 19 tomorrow. How exciting :) Going to Medinas I think. Huge and Ian just came up to borrow a DVD. Such sweeties. I love them to bits. I'm so going to bed in a minute. I'm totally wasted.
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Time:08:50 pm
Current Mood:loved
Well I've been incredibly busy! I don't know where to start!

Went to a flat warming party on Wednesday at Kincaid's Court. One of Hugo and Ian's mates Jonno had just moved in from Warrander as he didn't like it. Got stoned. Had fun. It was nice. Hugo (aka Huge) and Claire came back for a smoke. Jonno is lovely. Got to know Ian and Sophs too.

Thursday was Ian's birthday. We went to the Tron for drinks. Was nice and chilled. Then got stoned.

Friday was mental. Went to Potterow. Took some pills. Got fucked. Spent most of the night Sophs chatting about so much stuff. Was cool. She looked after me. We pulled. Was hilarious. Had so much fun. Huge was worried because he couldn't find me for ages. Went back to his with various people and danced to the Britney Spears DVD for hours. Was hilarious. Got a kiss of Ian (who is gay by the way). Was so much fun. Chain smoked and totally fucked my lungs up.

Yesterday went out for coffee with Sophs and ended up sitting in the Tron for 4 hours. Went to see Huge and Ian to decide what the plans should be for last night. Ended up going for drinks in the Tron. Jonno and Abbi came out too. Then went on to Espionage which was shit. Thought about Medina's but decided on Liquid Rooms. Cost 7 quid to get in but it was fucking amazing. Such good dance music with excellent DJs. We were pilled to fuck and we just danced the night away. Jonno and Huge looked after me so much. Kissed Jonno loads. It so good kissing gay men. You have so much fun and affection yet theres no strings attached. Damn good kisser too. I felt so protected last night too. There was this old guy trying to get with me all night and Huge was being so protective. Felt wonderful. Totally sorted things out too. So good to know he'll be down in Bramall over Xmas. Went back to Jonno's for some drink and some more pills. Was so fucked! The most fucked I've been for a while. Jonno's work mates came over at about 5. Much fun was had but then I started coming down and really needed my bed. Got home at 6:30 this morning.

Today I feel like shit. Which happens with a weekend of pill taking. Best weekend I've had here though. I feel so good. I'm so lucky to have the friends I have here. I've clicked with Huge and Jonno and Ian and Sophs and of course my flat mates fucking rule. I've found the people I know I'll be with for the rest of uni. I love them all to bits already. Jonno and Hugo said the nicest things to me last night that I will never forget. The nicest things I think anyone has ever said to me.
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Time:08:07 pm
It's amazing how music can make you feel. I love the way it can change my mood. Even the most simple lyrics can have profound meaning. "Sometimes" just one word says it all.
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Time:04:28 pm
Current Mood:working
Went to an open mic night last night with some people from college. I did enjoy it, but I felt considerably subdued and slightly depressed because of all the acoustic emo. India and Harry were good though, as always. Bought some of the weed I sold to Claire back off her because I'd ran out. I've got a couple of js worth left.

I did the most disgusting thing last night and you're all allowed to be grossed out by me here. I'd felt ill all night, and the first bong I toked was quite strong. My finger slipped off the rush hole and I inhaled the smoke too quickly. It hit the back of my throat with such force man. I thought I was going to die! I couldn't breathe for a good few seconds then I ran to the sink to throw up. Not done anything like that for a while!! The gross thing was, the sink was full of washing up - mostly my flat mates dishes. :D. They were not best pleased. Well, saying that, they were laughing hysterically at me for a while but I got really paranoid that they were pissed with me. But its all good. I did the washing up with Fairy liquid and boiling hot water so everythings ok. But yeah, I'm gross and proud :D

Not gone to anything today. I need to do this essay. I promise, tomorrow, I'm turning over a new leaf. I'm going to try and go to all my lectures. Plus I've set myself a target of learning ten Latin words a day. I'll do my best. I got an e-mail from my DoS about missing tutorials. I feel like such a shit because he was so nice about it. Sent him an e-mail back basically explaining that I always over sleep. I would like to have told him that I'm a complete waster who is always stoned. But that might not go down too well.

I am feeling much better today though. Less miserable. Some things still need sorting but that will come with time I think. Its all good for the moment anyway.

Not doing anything tonight so far. Hopefully get this essay finished in a few hours.

EDIT: Still not started essay. Susan distracted me for about 3 hours. I am just about to start it now.
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Time:07:31 pm
Current Mood:lonely
Finally found the time to update.

Ross, Owen, Ste and Andy finally arrived on Thursday. They got slightly lost in Edinburgh centre due to the wrong one-way system. I was so excited! Was wonderful to see them. I just couldn't stop hugging them. Seeing them made me realise how much I miss them. We went up to the flat for a smoke. Some friends from the college came up and it was all good. Got very stoned. Such good weed. Ste brought an ounce up with him. It went in two days. Thurs night we went to Establishment, a very cool hip hop club; then on to Opium but Andy couldn't get in because he was totally high on pills and quite obviously so. So we went to Faith which was surprisingly good for a trendy club. Played cool music upstairs and we danced the night away. Got so drunk. Went back to the courtyard at the college for a smoke. Made so much noise. I was loving it.

Friday was spent getting very stoned. Went to Potterow at night and got wasted again. What a fucking amazing night. It couldn't have been better. Danced and just had so much fun. Came back to the flat and got wasted. Ended up with me and Ross smoking joint after joint until about 5. Had some mad Englishmen and Scotsmen ranting at each other for an hour in the flat. Was hilarious. Everyone should have mad Scots ranting at each other when you're stoned. The most amusing thing ever. Two of them were pissed off because the other two stole their hair products when the fire extinguishers were going off in the lounge, which was also partly their fault. Hilarious!

Saturday they went home and I now miss them so much. I miss Ross the most. All the memories of the summer are flying around in my head and I wish I was there again, at my dads house, sat in the garden, having a BBQ, getting stoned and watching Jim and Kitchen play extreme frisbee. I feel sad about it. Was such happy times. I miss the Ritz on Mondays. I miss the random day trips. I miss camping. I miss them all being at mine, stoned, watching Dirty Sanchez and Spongebob. I miss our collective Pink Floyd obsession. I miss shroom days with Stacey and freaking out a stupid things like cows and the word Smint. I didn't miss them this much when I left. It was great to see them but then when they leave it hurts so fucking much.

I'm feeling quite emotional at the moment due to one thing and another. I'm feeling quite fragile. I feel lonely, even though I shouldn't be. I have great friends here. I love it here. I just want something more. I've been quite worried about myself recently. I've become very lazy about work and I'm hardly eating. I'm tired all the time but I think thats due to very late nights/early mornings and generally drinking and smoking too much. I should probably cut back, but I really don't want to. Right now I think I need to be out more than anything.

Which is why I'm glad to be going out tonight.
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Time:04:21 pm
Current Mood:excited
I'm so excited! Ross, Andy, Ste and Owen will be here soon! I can't wait! The next few days are going to be soooo good. Things are looking good all round at the moment :D

Flat inspection went well. We're getting a new fridge :D And maybe a new bath as the seals are going on the one we've got. He had nothing to complain about either as we totally tidied everywhere, including our rooms.

Missing lectures now. I'm just too excited. Not done an essay either. Another one thats late. Nevermind :D

WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! EXCITED!!!!!!!!
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